Think, write and get lost

Many times as humans we tend to feel the need to always have the answers, always have solutions or reasonable explanations to what is, what is not and what lies in between. As we learn more and more, we should realize that we know less and less. This realization may not cause us to have any less conviction in the “why” section of the way that we choose to live our lives and where we have committed our faith. We should be, however, more open-minded in our understanding of how other people live their lives.

As much as I would like to somehow (temporarily) live outside of this body, float outside my thoughts and experiences only, and really see what it is that makes up our complete existence, I am not able to do so. But, I try to see people as a big picture, not just as an action or an in-the-moment choice, but as the perpetual result of their experiences, understandings, actions.

Our world is changing daily and as we speak, what has been stated as facts and absolutes are now deemed as options and mere possibilities. We are afraid to state as a matter-of-fact who we are and what we believe, when years ago, the basis of how we lived our lives was hinged upon those very declarations.

I wonder, where has the very root of these changes even come from? Who has thought to question the way life is lived? Was it someone just poking to be different and to go against the grain, or someone in deep search for their truth outside of the norm?Are these questions a battle to be fought, or a wave to be caressed and rode out into the next phase of life? Are we as a human race leading ourselves into a greater realization of who we are and what we were created to be or are we exposing the frailty of our existence toward self destruction? Becoming our own gods-our very own creators. People with thousands of problems and twice that number in answers-yet no solutions, still no solutions.

Perhaps one day we will confess that we do not know it all and that, just like you, there may be a teeny tiny chance that we ourselves have missed the mark, too.

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Pack my bags

After finding out Trump was elected as our next president, I started to pack my bags so that, as he wishes, I could return to my home country…

Which made me begin to wonder, where the hell do I really come from?? 

Oh right, 

My ancestors were brought here against their wishes, 

And at some point, raped by their ‘owners’ {it hurts to even write that}

That’s the only way I can logically account for my great grandmother’s red hair and white skin,

– I doubt the fairy tailed- ‘our mixed love against the world’ is a greater possibility for how his-story actually went down…

So, again I ask myself, where am I going? 

The muddiness of this answer is found much deeper than at ancestry.com…

Internally I am vexed to point fingers and wage war 

Like, literally go to blows with people who have long gone from this earth, 

But who have left their blood of laws, lies and hate to perpetually speak on their behalf. 

I just want to tell them that we are worthy! 

Shake them up and let them know that we are worthy! 

Slap their faces, look them straight in the eyes and shout to them, “WE ARE WORTHY!” 

Wake them up and while trying to catch my breath, yell at them:

WE! 

ARE! 

WORTHY! 

TOO! 

After all, we were all once strangers on this soil…

God! This feels futile! 

These thoughts and frustrations are exhaustive… 

So, for a moment of peace of mind, I walk away from this reality with my bags half packed, 

Back to my smile…

Madison5thave

As a woman who is passionate about life and pensive about many things and has varying interests and subject matters, you will find that my blog site will feature different ideas. I hope that you will find a laugh, a smile, an encouraging word mixed with some enlightenment as you take the time to read what passes through my mind and often lingers in my heart.

Random things about me: I love reading and learning about different matters and topics. I google almost anything. I believe that love does conquer all. I am a product of the belief that, “A kind word can really go a long way”. I own a Nook and I love it because it’s like my own portable library. I’m a happy newlywed and new mom. I love my family and am extremely grateful, and I try to show my appreciation to the best of my ability.

(AND) I am pretty forward when it comes to speaking my mind and at times I add some cushion to what I say. I also am aware that I am a work in progress and I have a long way to go. I love people. I adore people who are generous enough to call me their friend. My heart bleeds for young women, especially those who have issues with self-esteem. I have a growing love for community outreach and I am currently working on enhancing this desire.

There are many other thing that I can say about myself, but I will end with this, Jesus is the center of who I am and I am not ashamed to state that fact. This is a big step for me, and I am excited about finally taking the time to commit to writing this blog. What I will write may not always be interesting, nor politically correct and may even challenge the lines of what someone like me ‘should’ say… AND I cannot promise that it will be free from typos and grammatical errors, but I guarantee it will be sincere. I do expect that as time goes on, I will become better and better is what I look forward to. Feel free to comment and subscribe. -Madison5thave