Pack my bags

After finding out Trump was elected as our next president, I started to pack my bags so that, as he wishes, I could return to my home country…

Which made me begin to wonder, where the hell do I really come from?? 

Oh right, 

My ancestors were brought here against their wishes, 

And at some point, raped by their ‘owners’ {it hurts to even write that}

That’s the only way I can logically account for my great grandmother’s red hair and white skin,

– I doubt the fairy tailed- ‘our mixed love against the world’ is a greater possibility for how his-story actually went down…

So, again I ask myself, where am I going? 

The muddiness of this answer is found much deeper than at ancestry.com…

Internally I am vexed to point fingers and wage war 

Like, literally go to blows with people who have long gone from this earth, 

But who have left their blood of laws, lies and hate to perpetually speak on their behalf. 

I just want to tell them that we are worthy! 

Shake them up and let them know that we are worthy! 

Slap their faces, look them straight in the eyes and shout to them, “WE ARE WORTHY!” 

Wake them up and while trying to catch my breath, yell at them:

WE! 

ARE! 

WORTHY! 

TOO! 

After all, we were all once strangers on this soil…

God! This feels futile! 

These thoughts and frustrations are exhaustive… 

So, for a moment of peace of mind, I walk away from this reality with my bags half packed, 

Back to my smile…

Madison5thave

As a woman who is passionate about life and pensive about many things and has varying interests and subject matters, you will find that my blog site will feature different ideas. I hope that you will find a laugh, a smile, an encouraging word mixed with some enlightenment as you take the time to read what passes through my mind and often lingers in my heart.

Random things about me: I love reading and learning about different matters and topics. I google almost anything. I believe that love does conquer all. I am a product of the belief that, “A kind word can really go a long way”. I own a Nook and I love it because it’s like my own portable library. I’m a happy newlywed and new mom. I love my family and am extremely grateful, and I try to show my appreciation to the best of my ability.

(AND) I am pretty forward when it comes to speaking my mind and at times I add some cushion to what I say. I also am aware that I am a work in progress and I have a long way to go. I love people. I adore people who are generous enough to call me their friend. My heart bleeds for young women, especially those who have issues with self-esteem. I have a growing love for community outreach and I am currently working on enhancing this desire.

There are many other thing that I can say about myself, but I will end with this, Jesus is the center of who I am and I am not ashamed to state that fact. This is a big step for me, and I am excited about finally taking the time to commit to writing this blog. What I will write may not always be interesting, nor politically correct and may even challenge the lines of what someone like me ‘should’ say… AND I cannot promise that it will be free from typos and grammatical errors, but I guarantee it will be sincere. I do expect that as time goes on, I will become better and better is what I look forward to. Feel free to comment and subscribe. -Madison5thave